Thursday, November 20, 2008


I hate dealing with fucking emotions. Yours, mines, and theirs. Fuck this bullshit of a word "feelings" nd suck shit up. I'm tired of trying, tired of asking questions , tired of wondering what ifs what is they are i am feeling. Confusing people urk me alot. Ignorant people are confusing keeping everything bundled up inside waiting for a low life human being to try to figure out this complicated ass way to figure out whats good ? cause they can't be more soft then to just say what's really going on. I can't deal with emotions, maybe im talking out my ass right now cause i've never fell/felt/thought i was in "love". The worst is hapening to be with the opposite sex who acts like a female.Not trying to offend us ladies but why whinning and complicating shit,nowadays we have to apparently fuck niggas through the ass since they wanna be all soft. Stop it with your feminine emotions, Us ladies we like aggressiveness, arguments, jealousy or may i speak for myslef ? We dont need another bitch in our lives.

Saturday, November 1, 2008

"I'm a prisoner & she's a cop w. the key my blood flows w. no trust towards her"





she can be materialistic give me everything i desire,want, need, always putting money in my pocket, but theres just a time when you dont even care about all of that and you just want your own space. Some say she cares "she gives you the world" just to cover up her mistakes nd tourments she puts me through. I cant have a conversaton without fights, disagreements, arguements and it all equals to punishments. Been punished for 4 weeks now feel like im in prison. Calling that person your "bestfriend" the one who you can trust the one who you can go to whenever theres something going on the person everyone in their life is "supposed" to have i really dont. Thats where jealousy comes in.Everyone can sit down with this person happening to be still alive in their lives and talk about everything from school-sex. I can't call this person "trustworthy" no matter how well things go. And if i do it hits me right in the face in the future whenever i fuck up. Nothing dealing with hatred, just can't deal with them. I need to get away, i need perhaps a vacation from my probation smfh.