Miss independent

Lately I've realized how much i like being alone having time for myself not depending waiting on anyone else, I use to hate being by myself always had a friend by my side, telling them all my shit and all that, a boyfriend to be there when i needed a hug or a person to cal me and make me feel wanted,and now I found everything I ever needed within myself, I dnt need a shoulder to lean on I don't need a nigga to depend on I'm a one man band. The feeling of walking on my own two feet is greater than ever needing anything from anybody

say goodbye?

I fake it sometimes i try and i cant. I like them sometimes , barely, when i really dont.He's a very beautiful person inside and out deserves the best of all but i cant force myself to want him as much as he wants me.I wish i could give him wat he deserves and wat he desires but i can't, i freeze and it doesn't come out of me.